Exercising selfcontrol and staring at blank walls

For a day or so,
I thought that all I needed to feel whole
Was the warmth of someone else
To heat me up again.

For a day or so,
I felt warm
At the embrace of your heart.

It sparked a fire in my heart,
that died of solitude
the morning after.

When I found myself
In the same bed
With the same man.

But something changed.

And now I’m staring at blank walls
that reflect my inside
like the mirror
in your hallway.

And now I’m exercising selfcontrol
Because the warmth of your skin
was like the first rush of a deadly drug.

I’m not in love,
I just need to feel warm.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s